Chapter 2013

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So… welcome 2013, huh?

My 30 Days [Blogging] Challenge is unfinished – again. That was my second attempt and I failed yet again.

The hosting provider that I’m currently subscribing to has increased their subscription fee. RM600++ for 2 years? RM100++ for 3 mths. I don’t remember paying that much before.

Anyway… what to look forward to in this chapter? Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm…………….

Honestly, no idea at all.

A trip to JB and Singapore, maybe?

Read all my To-Read collection, perhaps?

Finish all my pending [crochet] projects?

We’ll see..

Til then, bye ppl


The House That Built Me

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I know, I’ve posted this on FB… but I couldn’t help it. I suddenly feel so homesick and the “home” is not even the one I’m living now or the one at my kampung. I miss this “home”..

The House That Built Me

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I miss this house so much it hurts. It’s like missing someone you love.

I spent 14 years in this house, 18 years in this place though but we stayed at a different house for about 4 years.

I know this house is not even pretty. It’s made of zinc on the outside and plywood on the inside. If this house was built in KK, we would probably fry inside. But it was built at the foot of Mt Kinabalu and at that time, it was misty almost all day. My room was upstairs, the leftmost window. Every morning, when I open the curtain [back window], I was greeted by the majestic blue mountain. I took it for granted back then – the view – and what I would give to see the view again.

the bathroom was built with white tiles, there’ a big green bathtub and an old style heater.

The big tree on the right of the picture used to have little red fruit and birds like it there. Being a little tomboy back then, I liked to take a few shots at the birds with my slingshot and I did hit some. Kejam, kan? I’m sorry, but it was a lot of fun 😛

my sister’s tali pusat was buried under the house and I still remember the exact spot because I buried it. I was 12, coming to 13 and I remember, it was inside a Nespray tin and I dug a shallow hole to bury it. Thank God the dogs never found it  :-)

the stairs at the side of the house was the originally built one, but when the Management of the Mamut Quarters decided to renovate the house, my mom ask them to leave the stairs there so she can put her flower pots on them.

in front of the house is where we used to play, had our dancing practices or sometimes the place to just sit/lie on.

I miss this place A LOT!

Miranda Lambert – The House That Built Me

I know they say you cant go home again.
I just had to come back one last time.
Ma’am I know you don’t know me from Adam.
But these handprints on the front steps are mine.
And up those stairs, in that little back bedroom
is where I did my homework and I learned to play guitar.
And I bet you didn’t know under that live oak
my favorite dog is buried in the yard.

I thought if I could touch this place or feel it
this brokenness inside me might start healing.
Out here its like I’m someone else,
I thought that maybe I could find myself
if I could just come in I swear I’ll leave.
Won’t take nothing but a memory
from the house that built me.

Mama cut out pictures of houses for years.
From ‘Better Homes and Garden’ magazines.
Plans were drawn, concrete poured,
and nail by nail and board by board
Daddy gave life to mama’s dream.

I thought if I could touch this place or feel it
this brokenness inside me might start healing.
Out here its like I’m someone else,
I thought that maybe I could find myself.
If I could just come in I swear I’ll leave.
Won’t take nothing but a memory
from the house that built me.

You leave home, you move on and you do the best you can.
I got lost in this whole world and forgot who I am.

I thought if I could touch this place or feel it
this brokenness inside me might start healing.
Out here its like I’m someone else,
I thought that maybe I could find myself.
If I could walk around I swear I’ll leave.
Won’t take nothing but a memory
from the house that built me.


David Guetta ft. Sia – Titanium

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You shout it loud, but I can’t hear a word you say
I’m talking loud, not saying much
I’m criticized, but all your bullets ricochet
you shoot me down, but I get up

I’m bulletproof, nothing to lose
fire away, fire away
ricochet, you take your aim
fire away, fire away
you shoot me down, but I won’t fall
I am titanium
you shoot me down, but I won’t fall
I am titanium

Cut me down, but it’s you who’ll have further to fall
Ghost town and haunted love
Raise your voice, sticks and stones may break my bones
I’m talking loud, not saying much

I’m bulletproof, nothing to lose
fire away, fire away
ricochet, you take your aim
fire away, fire away
you shoot me down, but I won’t fall
I am titanium
you shoot me down, but I won’t fall
I am titanium

I am titanium

I am titanium

Stone hard, machine gun
Fired at the ones who run
Stone hard, as bulletproof glass

You shoot me down, but I won’t fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down, but I won’t fall
I am titanium You shoot me down, but I won’t fall
I am titanium You shoot me down, but I won’t fall
I am titanium

I am titanium


Christina Perri – Distance [feat. Jason Mraz]

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The sun is filling up the room
And I can hear you dreaming
Do you feel the way I do right now?
I wish we would just give up
Cause the best part is falling
Call it anything but love

And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say “I love you” when you’re not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?

And please don’t stand so close to me
I’m having trouble breathing
I’m afraid of what you’ll see right now
I give you everything I am
All my broken heart beats
Until I know you understand

And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say “I love you” when you’re not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?

And I keep waiting
For you to take me
You keep waiting
To save what we have

So I’ll make sure to keep my distance
Say “I love you” when you’re not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?

Make sure to keep my distance
Say “I love you” when you’re not listening
How long til we call this love, love, love?


Gomi-nola

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Warning : Youtube overload ahead.

Ok, and after much hesitation and made-up excuses,yesterday I finally went Zumba-ing :-) Part of the hesitation is because I’m a total kayu when it comes to dancing. I can do aerobics, I did Les Mills’ BODYATTACK™, BODYJAM™ and BODYSTEP™ before but from what I’ve seen on Youtube, Zumba is more on the Dance part. And I’ve said it before, kayu. I find it very difficult to move my legs and hands at the same time. Rhythm-deaf. Apa lagi mo Shimmy. *sigh* Jadi sa malu-malu meow sikit la.. anyway, since I’m not doing anything close to exercises these days, I’d better join and learn some dancing. Lagipun, I can bring my kids along. Under 12 F.O.C :-) Where? Zumba Fitness With Joyce & Nancy at Donggongon Library every Tuesday & Thursday, 6:30pm :-) so, Joyce, now I got 1 free class kan? 😛 hehehe

oops! sorry, I digress.

Have you ever seen the Gummy Bear song on Youtube? That song [as well as all the other songs sang by the green gummy bear and the green gummy bear itself] is very annoying, but strangely catchy I found myself singing to that song while driving in my car! Total weirdness!

Oh I’m a gummy bear, yes I’m a gummy bear..

My kids, especially my son watch the Gummy Bear video every day. From the Gummy Bear Song, to the Spanish version

Then comes Nuki Nuki Nuki, Sweeter than a cookie..

The day before yesterday, I heard the Cho Ka Ka O..

Honestly, when I first heard the Cho Ka Ka O, I thought it was Susu Kau or Suka Kau 😉

Yesterday, heard another song

And today on my way to work, suddenly I realized I’m singing Bubble Bubble Up, Bubble Bubble Up, Bubble Bubble Bubble Up, Blup Blup Blup Blup Blup Blup Blup..

Aduh.. ganjil!

So, have you watched all the videos yet? You’d have to agree with me that it is annoying kan? but then again, less annoying and the face is less disgusting than the Crazy Frog Ring Ding Ding, don’t you think so?

While writing this post, I stumbled upon a video where kids are dancing to the Gummy Bear song.. quite nice.. the steps are very very easy.

Looks like Zin Mommy is going to have a mini Zumba Session with her Zumba Family later this evening. Zumba Family Members being Ellone, Xavier & Cherry 😀

So, unconsciously singing along to Gummt Bear now? 😛


People Come Into Your Life For A Reason

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People come into your path for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do with that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a dificulty…
To provide you with guidance and support…
To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually…
They may seem like they are a godsend, and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then without any wrongdoing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die…
Sometimes they walk away…
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand….
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled…
Their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has now been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON.
Because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons.
Things you must build upon to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind, but friendship is clairvoyant.
Thank you for being a part of my life…
Whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime

~ unknown author

 

Someone emailed me this poem a long time ago.. if i’m not mistaken, it was in powerpoint with lots of beautiful images of amazing sceneries and flowers.

Sekadar Gambar Hiasan

I had almost forgotten about the poem.. but today, as I was driving from home to work, I was driving behind a Viva with an L sign. I was brought back to the time when I first attended the 5 [or was it 8] hours course at the driving school some 11 years ago. I remembered the course being long and boring, but there was this girl, perhaps a yr younger than I, sitting next to me. She was very friendly and she became my best friend during the whole 8hrs. After the course ended, I never saw her again. I couldn’t help but wondered where she is now… gosh! I don’t even remember her face – and her name.. 😐 All I remembered was that she was very friendly and she already knew how to drive before she went to the course.

May be she came into my life for a reason – so that I’ll have someone to have lunch with, to make the course less boring than it actually is.. just someone to keep me company.. my need has been met, her work is done.. that’s why she was never in my life again.

When I think about her, I kinda miss her actually..

So to the girl I met at the driving school : Thank you for being a part of my life…

And then, after her, I was suddenly reminded of all the people who I’ve met briefly, but left a huge footprints in my heart..

Sekadar Gambar Hiasan. Courtesy of http://www.marghanita.com

The charming tall guy I met back in my Uni years when we both attended some Christian (RC) Student gathering in KL. He was a Sabahan too. Very friendly and told me a lot of interesting stories. He was my bestfriend for the whole weekend and I think I had a huge crush on him at that time haha.. And I never saw him again… until at cousin’s engagement a few years ago. I’m sure it was him, but I’m not sure if he remembers me :-) My heart did skip a beat – not because I still have a crush on him, ok.. more like surprised  because I haven’t seen him for maybe 12 years, and sometimes I did wonder what has happened to him.. of course when you saw the person, the heart did skip a beat for his footprints are still on my heart 😀

To the charming tall guy : Thank you for being a part of my life…

The industrial trainee attached to the private company I worked with 11 years ago. She is actually very petite and cute! She was seated behind me and we instantly became good friends. I was being all big-sister-ly to her when soon after, I found out, she was actually 5 years older than I! I felt a bit awkward at first.. Anyway, she was a very very good friend and after she finished her industrial trainings, we keep in touch for a while, then I lost her phone number. Lost touch for a good 5-6 years, the I found her again on FB :-)

To the cute industrial trainee : Thank you for being a part of my life…

The Sarawakian Girl  whom I met when I went to report duty at W.P.Putrajaya 9 yrs ago. Was lucky enough back then when I manage to get hired [by the government] on my first SPA 8 interview. We had a 1 day orientation and she was so excited to become my housemate. She was my bestfriend during the whole day. Unfortunately, I am the only one who got posted to Putrajaya, whereas the rest got posted to their own hometown – including Sarawakian Girl :-(

Like the girl at the driving school, I don’t remember her name, or even her face. All I can remember about her – except for where she’s from – was that she’s quite tall and she loves karaoke :-)

So to the Sarawakian Girl : Thank you for being a part of my life…

And also to all the others I didn’t mention today, this poem is for you.

Thank you for being a part of my life…
Whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime :-)


Inspirational Song : Sunscreen by Baz Lurhmann

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I LOVE this song. The lyric is so inspirational, especially those in bolds. Enjoy everyone..

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’97.
Wear sunscreen.
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it.
The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience…
I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.

But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked…
You’re not as fat as you Imagine.

Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum.
The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind.
The kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing everyday that scares you.

Sing.

Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don’t waste your time on jealousy;
Sometimes you’re ahead,
Sometimes You’re behind.
The race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself.

Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults;
If you Succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your
Life.
The most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.
Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary.
Whatever you do, don’t Congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either.
Your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s.
Enjoy your body, Use it every way you can… Don’t be afraid of it, or what other people Think of it,
It’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own…

Dance… even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

Brother and sister together we’ll make it through
Someday your spirit will take you and guide you there
I know you’ve been hurting, but I’ve been waiting to be there
For you.
And I’ll be there, just tell me now, whenever I can.
Everybody’s free.

Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for good.

Be nice to your siblings;
They are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but for the precious few you should hold on.
Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard;
Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will Philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don’t expect anyone else to support you.
Maybe you have a trust fund, Maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.

Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you’re 40, it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen…

(Brother and sister together we’ll make it through
Someday your spirit will take you and guide you there
I know you’ve been hurting, but I’ve been waiting to be there
For you. And I’ll be there, just tell me now, whenever I can.
Everybody’s free.)

Hahaha.. almost all in bold.. but that’s how inspirational this song is to me. Come On.. Read the lyrics and let me know what you think of it.. enjoy..

owh and by the way, if you don’t know the song, here’s a video from youtube..

Excerpt from the youtube description :
The lyrics are taken from a famous essay — written in 1997 by Mary Schmich, a columnist with the Chicago Tribune — which gives some amazing advice for life, thoroughly recommend everyone to watch this ! enjoy !



Day 6 – A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.

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I am always intrigued by this creature. Do they really exist?

“Unicorns are generally considered to have supernatural abilities. Their horns have healing powers and are able to neutralize poisons. Unicorns represent purity and innocence, and can be tamed only by a virgin.”


Day 5 – A photo of yourself two years ago.

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Helleww..

Some of you might be wondering, did I post a wrong picture yesterday? No, I didn’t. That is my favourite photograph of my best friend. Where’s the friend? Tu yang pakai nametag Kindle tu.. heheheh..

I heart si Kindle, my new ‘best friend’..

And for todays challenge, so easy one.. paling like..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

i hv forgotten how much i love this hairstyle…