The Voice Within is now…

…available at SabahanBlog.com

The Voice Within @ SabahanBlog is actually just a replica of this blog so whatever posted HERE will be identical to whatever posted THERE.

why? why create another blog with the same entries?

SAYA PUNYA SUKA LAH!

heheh… it’s not like you have to pay extra streamyx charges if i create duplicate entries.

a waste of space?

pardon me, the space is yours?

no, isn’t it?

then, ok la… no need to question my intention.

besides, if either one is down – which is unlikely – there will always be an alternative, am i right?

hmm… maybe i should continue posting (the same thing) in multiply as well. i cross-published before, but i stopped in 2006. see lah how…

btw, why don’t you register for your own blog at SabahanBlog.Com? free what…

*sigh*

each and every strand of my hair has a mind of their own – so selfish, they refuse to be considerate and tolerate with one another. each and every one of them wants to go their own way. each and every one of them wants to have their own look. there is a strand who likes to be extremely curly, there is a strand that chose to be so thin and transparent, there are a few strands who likes to fight with each other they end up tangled, there is one strand that thought it is funny to break into several ‘branches’ – trust me, this one has a serious split personality problem. sometimes it can even have like 14 ‘branches’ – well, not funny, ok? yes, i counted them. some of them are only babies, they stand out in the crowds, i am just afraid the sparrows will find them too comfortable and turn them into their nests and lay eggs in them. then there are some who went for plastic surgery to ‘whiten’ their skin – mind you, they are not even friends.

i have tried so hard to get them to work with each other, but they just wouldn’t listen. they are afraid of the shampoo girl at Julia’s though… they will behave, but after a few days, they will start to wander on their own again.

i don’t wear make-ups

not even lipsticks

so do you realize that the hair is suppose to play a very important role on a person like me?

*sigh*

Have Fun….

yesterday, i said ‘i promise i’ll come up with a decision before midnight’

unfortunately, i still couldn’t right until midnight…

so now… i decide…. *drum roll*

that I’m so sorry, i’m going to have to pass this one.

well, perhaps next time lah…

you guys have fun & dun forget to post pictures ya…

2 more days to go…

our final decision, i’ll be going for c-sect on March 30th, 2007 4:30 pm.

dowan to waste my time want to tahan all the sakit2 for normal birth… mana tau, last2 cannot normal oso…

and sempat lagi c jnr went outstation to Kudat today… was so angry with his stupid company! what if suddenly i’m in labor today? told him, if anything happens today, i’ll call his boss and ask him to be in the clinic with me instead.

okaylah… ellone wants me to read her Humpty Dumpty dulu… til then ppl!

i’m in no mood to blog lately….

i have so many things in my mind that i’d like to put into writings but i dunno… i guess i’m just too lazy nowadays feel tired all the time i even doze off at work, while sitting down, in front of my pc, while typing! can u imagine that??? that’s just how tired i am… so… if i didnt get to finish this entry… just assume that i’m already in zzzz land la..

actually i wanted to blog about my Ellone who had just turn 2 on 2nd February… was planning to upload a dozen photos of hers – 13-24mths… but couldnt find the time to select and organize those photos… guess that’ll hv to wait. still cant believe she a big girl now… and she’s starting to love “reading” books. her current favourite is Snow White and The Seven Dwarfs. before bed, she’ll ask either jnr or me to read the book for her… she can even memorize some of the words/phrases in that book…

mimi : Once upon a time…
ellone : there lived a princess called Snow White!
mimi : her father, the king, was dead. she lived with her stepmother, the…
ellone : Queen!
mimi : in a castle in a deep, dark…
ellone : forest!
mimi : Snow White was very…
ellone : beautiful!
mimi : like…
ellone : Ellone!
mimi : Her skin was as white as snow, her hair as black as an ebony wood and her lips are as red as a…
ellone : red, red rose!

hmm… i miss her already…

last tuesday, went to the doctor to check on little xavier. doctor told us that “baby is growing up normally” and that he’s going to be “one very big baby”! i’m only into my 31 wks – that’s about 7mths & 3 wks along and little xavier’s estimated weight is already 2.4kg (2434g to be exact!) oo.. but this time, i’m planning to go for c-section also so, not that scared lah…

aiyaaaaaa……
actually i already typed in a loooooong entry on giving birth naturally and c-sect and about being a good mother… somehow, i had accidently punched some keys on the keyboard and POOF! it was all gone! DAMN! when i use the recover post, only manage to recover the portion b4 this paragraph… so lazy to type them back…

till later lah…

bye

Short Update!

1. Congratulate me you guys! (muka tia malu kan? ) ellone is going to have a baby brother!!!!!

2. Jnr went outstation again, will only be back on Thursday. called him just now, if everything goes well, maybe he can come back tomorrow. hmmm… fingers crossed dis…

3. Final exam is almost over, 1 more paper to go…

one boring wednesday

today was ‘almost’ an unproductive day for me. still on leave and i had nothing to do. woke up at about 8:30 a.m and then spent my time surfing the net and downloading stuff. finally decided to take my bath at 11:00 a.m, had breakfast – which is more like brunch – and then decided that i need a hairwash. just realized that i hvnt washed my hair for almost 2 weeks! i’m disgusting, i know… so at about 11:30 a.m, headed to Julia’s saloon and had a very nice and relaxing hairwash. steamed my hair and shaped my eyebrows too… but looks like my right eyebrow is higher than the left one… not that obvious laa.. so… dont want to be fussy, just leave it be. nanti tumbuh, kasi bagus la. went to do some grocery shopping at chua kah seng.

when i get home, surf the net again until about 3:30p.m… had my lunch and then watched CSI Season 7 Episode 8, which is not aired in Malaysia yet and then Desperate Housewives Season 3 Episode 9 right after. also not aired in Malaysia yet. yerrrr… i really hate mike for losing his memory! and also that new MIL of Bree’s. very annoying ooo…

my MIL came home from work at about 5:00 p.m, helped her to prepare dinner in the kitchen. nah… see… that’s why i said ‘almost’ unproductive day. at least, late in the evening, i did do something emm… productive.

oya, when i came back from tambunan yesterday, a cute little puppy greeted us. they called him ‘kampung’. dunno why, maybe bcos it is a kampung dog

jnr will be coming home tomorrow, yayyyy!!!

he’s currently outstation in lahad datu since monday. being away from each other needs a little getting used to coz we’ve never been apart since we had ellone. last month, he went to Sandakan but just for one night. this time, three nights… i really really really miss him. gosh, never felt this ‘missing’ feeling for so long… anyway, i’ve read that being away once in a while is actually good for a healthy relationship so i guess, i’ll have to tahan lah. i’m still lucky, some ppl dont see each other for months! i’m glad he’s coming home tomorrow…

on the other hand… ellone is now officially a kid!

last night was her first night sleeping without a diaper she had been potty-trained for months and for the last 2 months or so, we only put on her diapers during her sleeping time and for the last few days, whenever i checked her diaper in the morning, it was always dry. so, last night, i decided to take the risk and she passed the test with flying colors! wahhh… mummy’s sooooo proud of her little darling.

and now, she also can talk like a 4 year old kid. Lurus, clear, except for the ‘R’ of course… another wonderful thing to be proud of. and i dont think it’s wrong to be proud when ppl tell you that you hv a very smart kid. but i know laa… talking at her age doesnt necessarily means that she’s smart… oya, and we had also manage to get her off the ‘cucut’ about more than 2 months ago… so, there… she’s not a baby or a toddler anymore!

oklah… that’s all for now.. toodles ppl!

Rest In Peace, Mama Tua

my honey called me at about 12:30 dis afternoon and told me the news. my mom tried to called me earlier but my phone was in silent mode coz i was at the Majlis Anugerah Cemerlang UMS. since she couldnt get me, she called jnr instead.

my grandmother (my father’s mom) has been in coma for the past 3 weeks or so. she was the annoying grandmother i mentioned in this post. was admitted to the hospital one day before hari raya.. sakit tua bah… we dont know her exact age but i think she’s about 85++ lah. her identity card number started with 29 but my dad said, she was born much earlier than that. most probably 1922…

honestly, i dont feel that sad… i mean, i sorta feel relieved knowing that finally, she’s free from her suffering. i do feel sorry for her… but at least now, she wont have all those different sizes of tubes stuck up her nose – and mouth.

she was a bobolian before – or bobohizan in kadazan. in english emmm… traditional priestess kah tu or witch doctor… heheh… not really sure. please correct me aa… then, after my grandfather passed away, she became a christian but too bad, all of us forgot what her christian name is… and jadi masalah actually bcos all the sembayang2 have to use her christian name. anyway… i think God knows her bah tu, even without her christian name.

hmm… i’ll only be going back to tambunan tonite, hv to wait for my papa who’s currently offshore. and i’m still contemplating on whether to bring ellone along or not. i’d probably be there for at least 7 days and jnr is supposed to go outstation on the 20th until 23rd. who’s going to take care of her aa??? maybe i should bring her with me. lagipun, byk juga my cousins and nieces to help me look after her.

no wonder la last nite, at about 2:30, i heard a dog barking so loud just outside our bedroom, near the window and so strange coz we dont even have a dog. our dog died a few weeks back… the dog wasnt howling, but it was barking like there was some stranger outside. it was so loud, but so strange, jnr didnt hear it. wanted to wake him up coz the dog seems to be barking forever but since he was sleeping soundly (snoring some more)… i decided – biarlah.

spooky

May She Rest In Peace…

Pocho-pocho!

i dont know what is it with this pocho-pocho dance that almost everybody go crazy abt it. entahlah, lately, macam in every function, these ppl will try to make a slot for pocho-pocho dance, be it a wedding, company’s annoual dinner, family day, uni student’s open day… semua mo ada pocho-pocho.

i dont get it. seriously, i DONT get it.

no offense but i dont see any ‘kesyokan’ of that dance… geli ada lah NO OFFENSE! Tapi kan, apa laitu? you go (sambil lenggang-lenggang badan):
1. four steps to your right, and then
2. four steps to the left,
3. foursteps backwards, and then
4. another four steps to the front and at the same time turn to your right.
5. repeat step 1 to 4 until the music ends… which according to jnr, is about 5 minutes long!

my goodness! kalau sya laa… i wouldve fainted by the 3rd round.

my colleague even dubbed this dance as the tarian OM…

anywayyy… hv i mentioned that jnr is now working with a new company? he used to work with Lektronex Eng S/B and after 5 yrs, he decided to join Faber Medi-serve. He told me that the work env. is totally different from what he’s used to. when he was with Lektronex, he build things… well, of course, not him alone lah bah… but then, he has to go to the project site every day, check on the progress, make decision on what to/not to do… assign who and who to do what and what… go meeting and fight with the s*****/d*** architect *sorry honey, that’s what u told me* and… emm… mostly that’s about it la… most of his working hours is spent in the project site… under the heat of the sun. i do hv a feeling that his job back then was quite stressful.

but now, i think his job is a bit more relaxing…. but a lot of OUTSTATIONS spent more of his working hours in the office, doing paperwork, reports, audits… scheduling… coz this is a maintenance company kan… and one more thing abt this new company, most of the staf are locals… so, of course the env. is much emm… friendlier than before… so, this december, they’re going to have a family day and they’ve organized activities like futsal… and volleyball mangkali tu. and for the dinner… his colleagues decided to do a – guess what??? – POCHO-POCHO DANCE

now, they’re bz practicing already and since jnr is new, they FORCE him to join them with the dance! kesian juga jnr ooo… but he said, tidak bagus juga if he refuse… nnt ppl say he sombong pula. and then, not only join in the dance tau, hv to be in the front row lagi kesian ooo… and then, all ladies lagi tu, so far only 2 guys yg ikut – including jnr la… the other guys kasi malu2 savo sya… kesian my honey kannnn… they even take video lagi…

and that’s just exactly what i want to share today…. heheheh… usually i posted ellone punya video, today, we watch daddy ellone punya video so long my introduction bah… mcm mo pi donggongon dari rumah sya but taking jalan blakang, pi putatan dulu and then round kk, masuk kolombong, pi bukit padang, tembus kibabaig… baru sampai donggongon

bah, enjoy the video aa… not that clear la bcos they use hphone bah…

jadi? apa kata pengkritik?