The Voice Within

As i peeked through the dusty window, my heart wondered if the key to the door still worked. After all, I haven’t been here for so long – well, even if I did, it’s just to unload some random stuff without so much as taking a look around.

After contemplating for a few minutes, I finally decided that I should go in. The keys worked, just as i have thought they would be, but the hinges of the door creaked so loud it startled the birds perched on the windowsill and they flew scattered, scared.. Oops.. sorry birds 🙂

It was dark inside. I walked slowly to the window and opened the curtain to let the sunshine in and OWH MY GOD!! The thick dust from the curtain swirled around it became a blinding mist and I choked, coughed and sneezed. When my sneezings stopped, I finally opened my eyes and realized.. there are cobwebs everywhere!

POOR MIMI’S BLOG!

POOR THEVOICEWITHIN.NET… 😀

 Hehehe.. sorry people.. you must be wondering, what happened next? well, sorry to disappoint you.. I wasn’t realy talking about an abandoned house here.. I was just thinking that if my blog was a house, that’s how it would look like right now. thick dust and cobwebs everywhere..

I’ve been wanting to write a proper entry for quite some time, but everytime I began typing, I got distracted and the excitement to blog disappears just like that! I wanted to write more, but I guess I keep getting mental blocks these days..

Anywhoo… now that I’m here, let us clean them cobwebs as best as we can, shall we?

Now, the reason I’m here today is because I wanted to whine. I’m sorry this might annoy you but I’m allowed to whine in my blog, ok..

I’ve been having something weird on my right eye for a week now. It started on Monday. When I woke up, the first thing I noticed was that my right eyeball – yes, eyeball – is painful. It was still dark outside so I switched on the lights and realized that there’s definitely something on my right eye that’s blocking my view, although I didn’t feel anything foreign in it. Went to the mirror and tried to see if there’s any strands of hair or anything else but nope, there’s nothing there.. I rub it gently for a few time, still my view remains the same.

I thought, owh well, perhaps I slept on the wrong side of the pillow and accidentally put pressure on my right eye. don’t worry Mimi, come afternoon, your eyes will be perfectly normal again. Afternoon came and go but the “blocking thingamajiggy” stayed on. That evening, as I was driving home, traffic was slow as usual in front of the Federal House so I decided to “play” with my eyes. I closed the bad eye and my vision is perfect, but when I close my good eye, I saw a thin black cloud shrouding my vision. I could still see but it’s like the colors are off – it’s like they have a tinge of light gray or light brownish on them. It’s like I was looking out of a tinted windshield. That got me scared. I tried googling about painful eyeball and cloudy vision while I was on the road but nothing seems to ease my mind.

That night, I called my dad but he asked me to give it another day. If it’s not ok by the next day, he said I should see a doctor. Owh alright.. I’ll give it a day.. but the funny thing was, I ended up giving it a whole week!

*iklan : my hubby called and Selena Gomez’s Love You Like A Love Song Baby went on the air hehehe..*

So, this morning, since the kids spent the night at their grandparents, I asked my husband to take me to their panel doctor. I think the best way to deal with “unknown discomfort” is to visit a general practitioner first and see what’s their thoughts on the matter. After about 3 minutes – checked my throat, checked my lower eyelid, looked closely at my eyes, put a finger in front of me, pressed my eyebrow – he said he didn’t know what’s wrong.

Ooh.. I heard a loud gasp over there.. heheh… now before you say more, let me finish my story. He said, he couldn’t find anything wrong in general with my eyes. There are no infections whatsoever so he advised me to see an eye specialist. Since all specialists clinics are closed on Sunday, I went home feeling slightly more worried than before. Googled for eye clinics in kota kinabalu and a few came up on yellowpages, no proper website except for Optimax. I saw that they have Eye Problems section on their page so I read them. When I get to Glaucoma, it felt like I’ve hit a number on Bingo. No.. not Bingo yet, but a number on my Bingo card came up!

It says :

Glaucoma is a disease that characterized as permanent loss of vision as a result of damage to the optic nerve in the back of the eye, by an increase pressure of the fluid in the eye.

I thought to myself, this could be it! So I googled again for the symptoms… – life is so easy nowadays with google, kan? There are actually a few types of Glaucoma but I noticed that I have more “checks” with Angle-closure Glaucoma. The symptoms for this particular Glaucoma is :-

• Severe eye and head pain *check
• Hazy or blurred vision *check
• The appearance of rainbow-colored circles around bright lights
• Nausea *check or vomiting
• Sudden sight loss *check

Then, I clicked on Google Image and when I saw this image :-

I was like “Yess!!!! That’s how my vision looks like!!” Another hit on my Bingo card!

Although, mine was slightly more on the right side and less on the left side.

So, I couldn’t wait. I’m going to make an eye appointment tomorrow. I hope I can get one as soon as possible!

Will update soon.. bye..

I can’t believe it’s already September. Felt just like yesterday I was starting the 30 days challenge, which has yet to be completed.

Anyway.. I LOVE September. Why? Because all hit tv series will start their new season!

So, to all peminat tegar tv series, here are some of the Premiere Dates:-

CBS Channel

Wednesday, September 14
8 p.m. Survivor: South Pacific

Monday, September 19
8 p.m. How I Met Your Mother (one hour)
9 p.m. Two and a Half Men
9:30 p.m. 2 Broke Girls (new show)
10 p.m. Hawaii Five-O

Tuesday, September 20
8 p.m. NCIS
9 p.m. NCIS: Los Angeles
10 p.m. Unforgettable (new series)

Wednesday, September 21
9 p.m. Criminal Minds
10 p.m. CSI

Thursday, September 22
8 p.m. The Big Bang Theory (one hour)
9 p.m. Person of Interest (new show)
10 p.m. The Mentalist

Friday, September 23
8 p.m. A Gifted Man (new show)
9 p.m. CSI: NY
10 p.m. Blue Bloods

Sunday, September 25
8 p.m. The Amazing Race
9 p.m. The Good Wife
10 p.m. CSI: Miami

ABC Channel

Monday, September 19
8 p.m.  Dancing with the Stars
10 p.m. Castle

Tuesday, September 20
9 p.m. Dancing with the Stars Results Show
10 p.m. Body of Proof

Wednesday, September 21
8 p.m. The Middle (one hour)
9 p.m.  Modern Family (one hour)
10 p.m. Revenge (new series)

Thursday, September 22
8 p.m. Charlie’s Angels (new series)
9 p.m. Grey’s Anatomy (two-hours)

Sunday, September 25
9 p.m. Desperate Housewives
10 p.m. Pan Am (new series)

Wednesday, September 28
8:30 p.m. Suburgatory (new series)
9:30 p.m. Happy Endings

Thursday, September 29
10 p.m. Private Practice

Tuesday, October 11
8 p.m. Last Man Standing (new series)

Tuesday, October 18
8:30 p.m. Man Up! (new series)

Sunday, October 23
8 p.m. Once Upon a Time (new series)

NBC Channel

Tuesday, September 13
10 p.m. Parenthood

Wednesday, September 14
8 p.m. America’s Got Talent (season finale)
10 p.m. Up All Night (new show)
10:30 p.m. Free Agents (new show)

Monday, September 19
8 p.m. The Sing-Off
10 p.m. The Playboy Club (new show)

Tuesday, September 20
8 p.m. The Biggest Loser

Wednesday, September 21
8:30 p.m. Up All Night (regular time period debut)
9 p.m. Free Agents (regular time period debut)
9 p.m. Harry’s Law
10 p.m. Law & Order: Special Victims Unit

Thursday, September 22
8 p.m. Community
8:30 p.m. Parks and Recreation
9:30 p.m. The Office
10 p.m. Whitney (new show)
10 p.m. Prime Suspect (new show)

Friday, October 21
8 p.m. Chuck
9 p.m. Grimm (new show)

FOX Channel

Monday, Sept. 20
8:00-9:00 PM: House
9:00-10:00 PM: Lone Star

Tuesday, Sept. 21
8:00-9:00 PM: Glee
9:00-9:30 PM: Raising Hope
9:30-10:00 PM: Running Wilde

Wednesday, Sept. 22
8:00-10:00 PM: Hell’s Kitchen

Thursday, Sept. 23
8:00-9:00 PM: Bones
9:00-10:00 PM: Fringe

Friday, Sept. 24
8:00-9:00 PM: Human Target (Changed to October 1)
9:00-10:00 PM: The Good Guys (Fall Premiere

CW Channel

Wednesday, September 8
8 p.m. America’s Next Top Model
9 p.m. Hellcats

Thursday, September 9
8 p.m. The Vampire Diaries
9 p.m. Nikita

Monday, September 13
8 p.m. 90210
9 p.m. Gossip Girl

Tuesday, September 14
8 p.m. One Tree Hill
9 p.m. Life Unexpected

Friday, September 24
8 p.m. Smallville
9 p.m. Supernatural

Reality Tv

Making the Band 4 [MTV, Aug. 19, Tuesdays at 9]
Architecture School [Sundance Channel, Aug. 20, Wednesdays at 9]
Glam God With Vivica A. Fox [VH1, August 21, Thursdays at 10]
The Cho Show [VH1, August 21, Thursdays at 11]
America’s Toughest Jobs [NBC, Aug. 25, Mondays at 9 (four episodes); Sept. 19, Fridays at 8]
My Super Sweet 16 Presents: Exiled [MTV, August 25, Mondays at 10:30]
Janice Dickinson’s Modeling Agency [Oxygen, August 26, Tuesdays at 10]
America’s Next Top Model 11 [The CW, Sept. 3, Wednesdays at 8
Top Design 2 [Bravo, Sept. 3, Wednesdays at 10]
Kitchen Nightmares [Fox, Sept. 4 at 8, Thursdays at 9]
Rachel Zoe Project [Bravo, Sept. 8 at 11, Mondays at 10]
The Biggest Loser 6: Families [NBC, Sept. 16, Tuesdays from 8 to 10]
Survivor Gabon [CBS, Sept. 18, Thursdays at 8]
Dancing with the Stars [ABC, Sept. 22, Mondays at 8 and Tuesdays at 9]
Opportunity Knocks [ABC, Sept. 23, Tuesdays at 8]
Extreme Makeover: Home Edition [ABC, Sept. 28 at 7, Sundays at 8]
The Amazing Race 13 [CBS, Sept. 28, Sundays at 8]
Tim Gunn’s Guide to Style [Bravo, Oct. 2 at 11, Thursdays at 10]
Real Housewives of Atlanta [Bravo, Oct. 7, Tuesdays at 10]

FX Channel

Tuesday, September 7
Sons of Anarchy

Wednesday, September 8
Terriers: A new dramedy about a former cop who partners with a friend to paunch a private investigation firm. From The Shield creator Shawn Ryan.

Thursday, September 16
It’s Always Sunny In Philadelphia
The League

Enjoy, peeps!

Flower gleam and glow,
let your power shine.
Make the clock reverse;
bring back what once was mine

Heal what has been hurt,
change the fate’s design.
Save what has been lost,
bring back what once was mine,
what once was mine…

Enjoy…

There’s a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch, and it’s bringing me out the dark
Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go ahead and sell me out and I’ll lay your shit bare
See how I’ll leave with every piece of you
Don’t underestimate the things that I will do

There’s a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch
And it’s bringing me out the dark

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can’t help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

Baby, I have no story to be told
But I’ve heard one of you
And I’m gonna make your head burn
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there
As mine sure won’t be shared

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can’t help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand
But you played it with a beating

Throw your soul through every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow

(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
We could have had it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
It all, it all, it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

We could have had it all
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

You could have had it all
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)

But you played it
You played it
You played it
You played it to the beat.

Our dog died last month due to severe kutu infection. Since we don’t have any pet right now, I guess it’s ok to write a letter to the dead dog.

So, here goes..

Dear Spotty,

I’m really sorry that finally, you succumb to your severe kutu infection. We have done everything we could to save you, but in the end, you lost the battle. I couldn’t feel sad for you, in fact, I’m glad you’re free at last from all the kutu and we are free from your smelly kudis.

I hope you’re happy up there together with all your ancestors.

You will always be remembered.

Sincerely,
Your Owner.

Day 24 – Mission Accomplished!

As of lately, FOOD! Lots and lots of FOOD!!!

Day 23 – Mission Accomplished!

My face and my thumb print 🙂

Day 22 – Mission Accomplished.

Whoever said money can’t buy you happiness, they’re lying!

Day 21 – Mission Accomplished!

I’m crossing the “marrying” word coz I’m already happily married.

Since I’m a psychic and a fortune-teller, I can see clearly that the person to the right of this pic will always be with me today, tomorrow and always..

Day 20 – Mission Accomplished!