As i peeked through the dusty window, my heart wondered if the key to the door still worked. After all, I haven’t been here for so long – well, even if I did, it’s just to unload some random stuff without so much as taking a look around.
After contemplating for a few minutes, I finally decided that I should go in. The keys worked, just as i have thought they would be, but the hinges of the door creaked so loud it startled the birds perched on the windowsill and they flew scattered, scared.. Oops.. sorry birds 🙂
It was dark inside. I walked slowly to the window and opened the curtain to let the sunshine in and OWH MY GOD!! The thick dust from the curtain swirled around it became a blinding mist and I choked, coughed and sneezed. When my sneezings stopped, I finally opened my eyes and realized.. there are cobwebs everywhere!
POOR MIMI’S BLOG!
POOR THEVOICEWITHIN.NET… 😀
Hehehe.. sorry people.. you must be wondering, what happened next? well, sorry to disappoint you.. I wasn’t realy talking about an abandoned house here.. I was just thinking that if my blog was a house, that’s how it would look like right now. thick dust and cobwebs everywhere..
I’ve been wanting to write a proper entry for quite some time, but everytime I began typing, I got distracted and the excitement to blog disappears just like that! I wanted to write more, but I guess I keep getting mental blocks these days..
Anywhoo… now that I’m here, let us clean them cobwebs as best as we can, shall we?
Now, the reason I’m here today is because I wanted to whine. I’m sorry this might annoy you but I’m allowed to whine in my blog, ok..
I’ve been having something weird on my right eye for a week now. It started on Monday. When I woke up, the first thing I noticed was that my right eyeball – yes, eyeball – is painful. It was still dark outside so I switched on the lights and realized that there’s definitely something on my right eye that’s blocking my view, although I didn’t feel anything foreign in it. Went to the mirror and tried to see if there’s any strands of hair or anything else but nope, there’s nothing there.. I rub it gently for a few time, still my view remains the same.
I thought, owh well, perhaps I slept on the wrong side of the pillow and accidentally put pressure on my right eye. don’t worry Mimi, come afternoon, your eyes will be perfectly normal again. Afternoon came and go but the “blocking thingamajiggy” stayed on. That evening, as I was driving home, traffic was slow as usual in front of the Federal House so I decided to “play” with my eyes. I closed the bad eye and my vision is perfect, but when I close my good eye, I saw a thin black cloud shrouding my vision. I could still see but it’s like the colors are off – it’s like they have a tinge of light gray or light brownish on them. It’s like I was looking out of a tinted windshield. That got me scared. I tried googling about painful eyeball and cloudy vision while I was on the road but nothing seems to ease my mind.
That night, I called my dad but he asked me to give it another day. If it’s not ok by the next day, he said I should see a doctor. Owh alright.. I’ll give it a day.. but the funny thing was, I ended up giving it a whole week!
*iklan : my hubby called and Selena Gomez’s Love You Like A Love Song Baby went on the air hehehe..*
So, this morning, since the kids spent the night at their grandparents, I asked my husband to take me to their panel doctor. I think the best way to deal with “unknown discomfort” is to visit a general practitioner first and see what’s their thoughts on the matter. After about 3 minutes – checked my throat, checked my lower eyelid, looked closely at my eyes, put a finger in front of me, pressed my eyebrow – he said he didn’t know what’s wrong.
Ooh.. I heard a loud gasp over there.. heheh… now before you say more, let me finish my story. He said, he couldn’t find anything wrong in general with my eyes. There are no infections whatsoever so he advised me to see an eye specialist. Since all specialists clinics are closed on Sunday, I went home feeling slightly more worried than before. Googled for eye clinics in kota kinabalu and a few came up on yellowpages, no proper website except for Optimax. I saw that they have Eye Problems section on their page so I read them. When I get to Glaucoma, it felt like I’ve hit a number on Bingo. No.. not Bingo yet, but a number on my Bingo card came up!
It says :
Glaucoma is a disease that characterized as permanent loss of vision as a result of damage to the optic nerve in the back of the eye, by an increase pressure of the fluid in the eye.
I thought to myself, this could be it! So I googled again for the symptoms… – life is so easy nowadays with google, kan? There are actually a few types of Glaucoma but I noticed that I have more “checks” with Angle-closure Glaucoma. The symptoms for this particular Glaucoma is :-
- Severe eye and head pain *check
- Hazy or blurred vision *check
- The appearance of rainbow-colored circles around bright lights
- Nausea *check or vomiting
- Sudden sight loss *check
Then, I clicked on Google Image and when I saw this image :-
I was like “Yess!!!! That’s how my vision looks like!!” Another hit on my Bingo card!
Although, mine was slightly more on the right side and less on the left side.
So, I couldn’t wait. I’m going to make an eye appointment tomorrow. I hope I can get one as soon as possible!
Will update soon.. bye..